MLN'7294

MLN'7291

Margaret Le Nguyen.7F'94.yr10@MGC
L.margaret.x33@hotmail.com

Wednesday, January 19, 2011 @ 10:04 PM

i like people who ask "so how's your day been?" or "wacha do today?"

even though i never seem to do anything interesting

or have anything good to talk about my day

it's the thought that counts,

of wanting to know how my day was even if it was boring to them.

That saying "when you're single, all you see are happy couples, and when you're taken all you see are happy singles" could relate to me.

But not exactly, i don't see happy couples.

I tend to see how good boyfriends are to their gfs

and i guess that gives me hope that there's still better guys out there.

That even if the close to perfect guy for me has changed and blend with other guys,

from smoking to style trends

everyone changes and no one's perfect

"if you learn to accept their imperfections, you really must love them."

i don't believe so, i think it's infactuation, to love someone so much you don't see the bad in them.

I would like someone to see the bad in me and tell me so i could change for the better, not someone who doesn't give two fucks about the way i act or what i do

by telling me off even if i get offended, i'll know at least he cares.

That doesn't mean i would want him to full criticise me, i'd just want him to confront me and tell me what he likes and he he doesnt like, because that way it doesn't piss me off nor will i get offended.

I'm picky, but im not shallow, i have a type.

i love funny people.

But if he had a bad cocky personality, had bad mood swings or smoked

i surely wouldnt go for him as funny as he is.

I'm not all biggie on the smoking issue, many guys smoke these days

It's just i'd appreciate it if someone would just not smoke when i'm there, or if they had the courtesy to smoke away from me.

Generally i like guys with guts, who would speak their mind to me,

tell me if they like me or just open up to me, even if what they had to say hurt,

i'd rather them speak their mind then hide things away from me.

I hate people who give mixed signals, just get your story straight.

Girls aren't hard to understand,neither are boys.

We just chose to overthink things too much and are afraid to say things that are meant to be said.

I especially hate people who avoid talking to avoid awkwardness, ex's can be friends too, you don't have to be so hard on yourself. We both have people we like now, or who like us, what does it matter?

The past is the past, let it go because there was nothing good in the beginning anyways.

Life lesson # never date anyone who had just broken up

even if they say that they're over that person, you just can't over someone that quick.

I realised i have changed, i've overshadowed myself with someone i barely know.

maybe its because i don't want to open up to anyone like i once did.

i don't want guys taking advantage of me if i do like them and just play around with me like i'm a toy.

Honestly blogspot..between me and you, i don't want a tatoo

i like to keep my body clean.

I don't want to check out guys,

because there's someone i already like.

I do love the eureka tower.

i don't like dying my hair color hoping it'll hide the person i am.

i like cooking, even though i suck at it.

i did remember those times he said he wanted to marry me when we grew up, i just lied that i didn't because i didn't want to feel the pain of good old memories.

I don't always like to dance, i just dance to take my mind of the world around me.

And i only lie, just to save myself from being sad, because that's the most horrible feeling ever.

i'm not lazy, i just act lazy to see who would care enough to tell me off.

That time Tony said *lovesmargaret, i only said "uh wtf i'm out" to save myself from getting hurt if he said "uh wtf?"

i still have that promise printscreen saved.

When i thought he called me a player, that actually hurt because i know that i was one, untill i met him. But after him, i'm back to being a player now because i'm just too scared to open up to anyone again.

I'm a fake because no one can see through my wall except Thomas Tran,

because he's the only person i feel comfortable admitting my embarassing self to.

@ 3:39 AM

yea, you're right.
you have changed these past 2 years
happy? :)
LOL

Tuesday, January 18, 2011 @ 12:28 AM

i am such bad person.

i lead people on without realising it.

maybe i do realise it,

but it's just for fun.

But if i feel bad, it does mean that i have a heart right?

No matter one none of them seem to catch my eye.

maybe my best friends are right, i really do need to get tied down.

It's kind of hard now because i only think of relationships as a game, it's all a fucking game.

there's no one i'd rather be with..

Monday, January 17, 2011 @ 11:10 PM

when you fall down and there's no one to help you up

what do you do?

wait for a person to come along and help your jackass?

no. you pick your shit up and do things your own way.

I've realised now that for awhile i've always been relying on others to help me and motivate me

I always looked at him, that person who could basically motivate me just by smiling

but that same person now who he going downhill hismelf.

i didn't think i could do anything myself, but i realise that now i can.

I thought denistry was out of reach

but maybe now after hearing that i can get there, it's changed my perspective way of thinking.

athough it might take long time, i'll be trying my best to get there

All i need is to get into the 80's and study Oral health for 4 years and another 2-4 of Dentistry

not that bad i guess.

For the past year that went by, i always thought that if we back together everything would be close to perfect again

but that's not how life goes

people change, promises are broken and life goes on.

After i redyed my hair back to dark brown and cut my hair, i realised how stupid i was

i wasn't doing this for myself

i was doing this for him.

i hardly ever think about myself anymore, and that's when i realised how stupid i was.

But i guess it's over now because i'm no longer going to be stuck in the past, i'm going to look forward to the future and once i become a dentist, fuck you all who looked down on me.

I may not be smart not perfect, but i'm hardworking and i'm willing, i'll find my way there.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011 @ 6:00 AM

new year, means the beginning of forgetting you and whatever happened between us.

i'm so caught it the past i need to just let it go